I am thinking a lot about the past and the future these days. Looking at old ways of thinking and considering implementing new ones. I awoke to an email from this guy who does a lot of “positive thinking/create your own reality” type of stuff. In it, he talked about how we sabotage our plans by not being 100% behind them.
For example he states:
“…one of the keys to manifesting your desires is creating alignment between your conscious desires and your subconscious intentions.
Because, if your Conscious Mind wants one thing and your Subconscious Mind wants something else it is impossible to create what you want.
These subconscious counter-intentions work to sabotage your manifestations.”
I’ve been off coffee for a while and after reading this, decided it was time for a cup of joe and a chocolate chip cookie (gluten-free, of course!) I am now sitting here with this quote in front of me wondering, “are my subconscious intentions different from my conscious desires, and if so, how?”
Now you see why coffee was necessary. Wha? Huh? What time is it? What are you on about, woman?
Seriously, I am wondering if subconsciously, I want/intend one thing while telling myself consciously I want/desire something else. What this does, according to Dr. Robert Anthony, is cancel out any manifestations I may have had rolling towards actualization.
Lord, somebody roll me a joint, I sound like such a hippie.
I want a good life. I want to be happy. I have a good life. I am often happy. I want/intend to release the past and move into the future with joy in my heart, with an open mind and with hope for the future, but this is very hard to do when deep down I don’t think I am worth it. Or is it something else other than the usual parentally implanted low self-esteem? Is there something I want/intend/desire, deep down, that I am not admitting to?
What would I do if I could do ANYTHING? Live ANYWHERE? Love ANYONE? Do ANYTHING for a living? What would YOU do? What would we do if we weren’t afraid of judgement? If we didn’t feel set on a path and unable to shift from it?
These days I am trying to do some of the things give me the most fear, and sometimes they are so simple it’s ridiculous. Like taking a ride on a boat. So simple. Make an appointment, get on the f-ing boat. WOW. SO dramatic.
Dr. Robert Anthony says to keep exposing yourself to new, fresh and exciting ideas is one way to reduce “counter-intentions” from taking hold.
I think I need to make a list of little things that give me joy, and keep trying to allow myself to have them. Because bottom line, if you don’t allow yourself to be happy, nobody is going to do it for you. That’s one of those soap opera myths I grew up on. “True Love” was going to solve all your problems. Uh… no, actually, it doesn’t. It’s wonderful to have a great partner in life, and it makes a HUGE difference to have a good, loving partner who supports your goals, but YOU still gotta deal with YOU. What YOU really want, even if it doesn’t always jibe with what your partner wants.
That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t want it, or shouldn’t have it. Maybe you might have to compromise a little bit, as to when and where and how, but you should definitely have a conversation about what you want.
Don’t you love how I have managed to go from talking about myself to talking about the great “you?” Ah, grasshopper, the mind is so limber this morning.
What I am talking about, what I am getting at is what real FREEDOM is. Inner freedom. It is saying YES to yourself, to what you want and to letting go of the things INSIDE of you that hold you back from having it, and then, oh yes, letting go of wanting. Oh joy. Because in fact, you might just need to BE what you already ARE. You may even already HAVE what you think you want. What about that?
It gets exciting and sometimes scary when you say, “I WANT.” It means you’ve put it out there as a real thing, a real need. Now you have to do something about it, like get out of the way and allow yourself to have it, to be in it, to “live the dream,” so to speak.
I want more beautiful tattoos and I don’t want to be told it’s a mistake or to be given shit for having them. I want to have more healthy fun. I want to laugh a lot more. I want to ride in a hot air balloon. I want to spend more time making art. I want to spend more time in New Orleans. I want to sing again. I want to care less what other people think about me. I want to not worry about “haters” and “stalkers” and enjoy more “lovers of life.” I want to feel less responsible for other people and more responsible for myself.
Good morning! Another cup of coffee anyone? Cookie? Copy of “Co-Dependent No More?”